Once skin now hair...
Let me first say this. I have become obsessed with hair coloring. I was before obsessed with skin care products, now it is hair products.
I have to admit that when it came to skin products I have almost tried every brand available at some point. I used to sit and make lists of future purchases of such products. This started in my teenage years when I had acne problems and was triggered to find solutions, and when I got rid of that problem I focused on maintenance and proper care for my then oily skin. As I grew older and my skin stabilized its needs changed. But to my relief (as I started getting worried that I will not be able to find an excuse to experiment with products any more) my skin turned out to be highly responsive to the environment, so I ended up using a routine for summer days and another for winter. Not to mention some other miscellaneous items that I bought because I just simply liked one thing or the other about them.
OK this was my skin history, now when it came to my hair it was a different story. I was very conservative, and my motto was “If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it” and as I mentioned before I had for the most part had long abundant hair with nice natural waves, nice color and I couldn’t be happier with it. My hair care routine was very basic, and hair care products were very minimal. Now it is a whole new story. Just last week I spent a fortune in the drugstore buying hair care products; three different types of shampoos (same brand but different function) with their respective conditioners or intensive treatments, my favorite anti-frizz serum, one extra intensive treatment pack, two different brands of hair color (I have to buy two boxes of each for my long hair) and one leave in conditioner.
I did however buy some skin care products, obsessing about my hair does not mean neglecting my skin, you know!! But when it comes to skin care now I just buy exactly what I need for now, no storage for future use. But hair color, I have now 8 boxes of hair color, different brands and different colors; I am now not even sure that I will end up using all of them. I discovered it is not that easy to change hair color without professional help and I don’t mean psychiatric!!! funny people....
Monday, January 16, 2006
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Motherhood Bliss
Motherhood, what you hear, imagine, and the real thing...
Personally I was never one of those people who said that one of their life’s goals is to have children. Through all the stages in my life it was not one. I have friends who badly wanted children at the early age of 18; they were badly wanting children and dreaming of the day when this becomes real, and they can see their off springs run around. I was never like that, never. Don’t misunderstand me I did love children and still do. At a certain period of my life I considered becoming a kindergarten teacher, because I loved being around children so much. But having my own, sorry but I have never fantasized about that.
Nonetheless, here I am with baby girls, devoted the greatest part of my days to the service and maintenance of their lives. Do I enjoy being with my children? yes I do. Do I think it’s a life requirement? No I don’t. Or at least I think I don’t. You know with the year 2006 I am going to be 35 and that makes one start to wonder, but that is another issue.
When I had my first baby 2 and 4 months ago, a friend of mine asked how I felt about and I said “stupid”. If motherhood makes you feel anything, it is stupid. Here you are a reasonable adult, who spends life thinking what is fair to me and others, deciding who to love, who to take as friends and who to eliminate from your life based on their merits. Find yourself completely and utterly in love with this little creature that you brought in the world, who is unaware of anything most of all your love for it. Now how reasonable is that?!!!
I really hate the mythical approach people have to motherhood and parenthood and all that. The truth is we have no say in the matter. You have a child, if your normal, you love it unquestionably and totally. Is it roses and flowers and a wonderful dream, most certainly not? Its a nightmare. By day, you are running around catering for their needs (which is not such a bad way to spend your days, really), by night you are sleepless worried about them. What is so wonderful about that?!
I will tell you what. Its the smile. When you see their smiles and hear their laughter its then that the nightmare becomes the most wonderful of dreams.
So if someone asks would you recommend it. I would say who I am to recommend anything? But as experiences go its not a bad one at all. And I will tell you something, from all the jobs I had it is the one job that never felt insignificant nor hypocritical at any point.
Personally I was never one of those people who said that one of their life’s goals is to have children. Through all the stages in my life it was not one. I have friends who badly wanted children at the early age of 18; they were badly wanting children and dreaming of the day when this becomes real, and they can see their off springs run around. I was never like that, never. Don’t misunderstand me I did love children and still do. At a certain period of my life I considered becoming a kindergarten teacher, because I loved being around children so much. But having my own, sorry but I have never fantasized about that.
Nonetheless, here I am with baby girls, devoted the greatest part of my days to the service and maintenance of their lives. Do I enjoy being with my children? yes I do. Do I think it’s a life requirement? No I don’t. Or at least I think I don’t. You know with the year 2006 I am going to be 35 and that makes one start to wonder, but that is another issue.
When I had my first baby 2 and 4 months ago, a friend of mine asked how I felt about and I said “stupid”. If motherhood makes you feel anything, it is stupid. Here you are a reasonable adult, who spends life thinking what is fair to me and others, deciding who to love, who to take as friends and who to eliminate from your life based on their merits. Find yourself completely and utterly in love with this little creature that you brought in the world, who is unaware of anything most of all your love for it. Now how reasonable is that?!!!
I really hate the mythical approach people have to motherhood and parenthood and all that. The truth is we have no say in the matter. You have a child, if your normal, you love it unquestionably and totally. Is it roses and flowers and a wonderful dream, most certainly not? Its a nightmare. By day, you are running around catering for their needs (which is not such a bad way to spend your days, really), by night you are sleepless worried about them. What is so wonderful about that?!
I will tell you what. Its the smile. When you see their smiles and hear their laughter its then that the nightmare becomes the most wonderful of dreams.
So if someone asks would you recommend it. I would say who I am to recommend anything? But as experiences go its not a bad one at all. And I will tell you something, from all the jobs I had it is the one job that never felt insignificant nor hypocritical at any point.
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Procrastination!!! To do or not to do??
Long live procrastination!!!
I don’t know if this is a family disease or a result of being raised by a to do it now mother. But my sister and I seem to be from those people who’s brain only function when it absolutely has to. She is an undergraduate student and I am a postgraduate student, with a fourteen years age difference and still our approach to studying, and all must do things are nearly the same. We only get to them when there is no other choice except failing or losing and such.
So I am doing this distance learning course, which I committed my self to before quitting my job. Because I know me, I could become too adapt at staying home and doing nothing and then wake up one day and regret it. So I registered and started on the course before leaving my job. I do enjoy it and think it was good thinking on my part to do that. But when it comes to the assignments I am just such a bad person.
I am on my third semester now, and for all last three, at the beginning I sit down with my computer and plan carefully the topic around the semester, marking everything on my calendar, This semester was no exception. After being stuck writing a 2000 word report in four days last semester, I decided that this one will be different, the stress with two babies to care for was too much. So there I sat again with my laptop scheduling last September. Only to find myself a month after doing the same thing all over again. You see, the Uni had problems with their VC at the start of the semester, by the time they fixed my husband’s family started arriving (they live in another city) for Ramadan and Eid. And here you go 4 weeks went by being busy with all those family events.
With people like me, procrastinators that is, everything can set us off track, and we do tend to take extra long to get back on it. I have noticed this pattern with me, with my sister and with a friend.
Now I don’t know if someone out there has actually studied patterns of behavior associated with people like us, if so please help!!! if not please do!!! Any therapist or a psychiatrist please help!!!
As for me, well I am trying to work on it. I can see some improvement but not much. The thought of me slaving for endless hours one day to catch on what I have to do is a thought I keep running in my mind to try and motivate me. So from now on: Down with procrastination!!!
I don’t know if this is a family disease or a result of being raised by a to do it now mother. But my sister and I seem to be from those people who’s brain only function when it absolutely has to. She is an undergraduate student and I am a postgraduate student, with a fourteen years age difference and still our approach to studying, and all must do things are nearly the same. We only get to them when there is no other choice except failing or losing and such.
So I am doing this distance learning course, which I committed my self to before quitting my job. Because I know me, I could become too adapt at staying home and doing nothing and then wake up one day and regret it. So I registered and started on the course before leaving my job. I do enjoy it and think it was good thinking on my part to do that. But when it comes to the assignments I am just such a bad person.
I am on my third semester now, and for all last three, at the beginning I sit down with my computer and plan carefully the topic around the semester, marking everything on my calendar, This semester was no exception. After being stuck writing a 2000 word report in four days last semester, I decided that this one will be different, the stress with two babies to care for was too much. So there I sat again with my laptop scheduling last September. Only to find myself a month after doing the same thing all over again. You see, the Uni had problems with their VC at the start of the semester, by the time they fixed my husband’s family started arriving (they live in another city) for Ramadan and Eid. And here you go 4 weeks went by being busy with all those family events.
With people like me, procrastinators that is, everything can set us off track, and we do tend to take extra long to get back on it. I have noticed this pattern with me, with my sister and with a friend.
Now I don’t know if someone out there has actually studied patterns of behavior associated with people like us, if so please help!!! if not please do!!! Any therapist or a psychiatrist please help!!!
As for me, well I am trying to work on it. I can see some improvement but not much. The thought of me slaving for endless hours one day to catch on what I have to do is a thought I keep running in my mind to try and motivate me. So from now on: Down with procrastination!!!
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