Why am I feeling sad?
I love my husband, and I think we have overall a good life together. But as often in relationships you want more and expect more.
I am sad because after seven years of marriage and ten years of engagement and other relations my dear husband does not understand as well as I wished he would.
I am sad because we seem to be drifting into a banal husband and wife relationship and not the deep friendship I wanted out of a marriage.
I am sad because, despite my several attempts, my husband can not find the will to demonstrate his love by small daily loving gestures. Don't get me wrong, he is funny and jokes around a lot, but where are the gestures that tell me: "you are my significant other".? a hug or a kiss during the day can do miracles to ones emotional well being, but my requests fell on deaf ears.
I am sad because, he does not give me the feeling of security and safety I wanted from him. I would love to believe that he is there for me and would take care of me in my future and present, but now I am not so sure.
I am sad because he seems almost as unsatisfied as I am and I don't know what to do about it.
I am sad because I wanted to give my daughters the image of how wonderful marriage can be for a couple, because I grew up in a troubled marriage and wanted to give them something different. I wanted to show them how fulfilling mutual love and caring between a couple can be, but now I am not so sure I will be able to do that.
I am sad because I want more in my marriage than what I have now, and I am sad because for the first time I am not sure I can have it.
