Monday, November 17, 2008

Feminist?

I never considered myself a feminist. Just don't believe in making a separate issue of women's rights, I believe that equal, fair, just and good treatment is a God given right to all humans regardless of gender, race and any other categorization.

At the same time, I do feel like women are put under a great pressure to please from an early age. That is why we all try to be smart, intelligent, hard working, beautiful, slim, good cooks, good workers, good mothers and everything else anyone expects of us. And we tend to be so hard on ourselves. But what really gets to me is how women are so hard on one another. I think women around me are each others worst enemies. We are always so hard and so quick to judge if we see an overweight woman, or a woman who wishes to stay home and not work, or a woman who choses to take a laid back attitude about anything. At least this is how I see women around me.

My sister in laws recently went to a wedding party. Next day they are all picking on the other women who were at the party, about not dressing right for their shape!!! They find the fact that I don't not socialise that much a wrong thing!!! Other women in the family think that I am less than efficient because I quit my job to stay home with my children!!! I know someone who had a brother who was divorced three times and when he wanted to get married and chose a divorcee like him they did not like it. I tell no one as hard on women as women themselves.

Why can't they be more compassionate, and give more consideration to other women. Is it not enough what we have to deal with from others? Why can't we think of any other woman as a friend or sister before we judge?

I just don't get it!

Saturday, November 01, 2008

School

My eldest now five years old has started going to school last week. I was so emotional dropping her off, she was fine though and all exited about the school, but I almost cried. So on that first day, I took her to her classroom, then went down, received her books and uniform. When she got back home we tried the uniform and again I was almost in tears. God it is just like yesterday when we brought her home from the hospital.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Hmmm...

So Ramadan came and went. The whole buzz that comes with it is almost over. I don't feel like ranting right now, but Ramadan since I got married has become busy time for me. My hubby's family all fly in town from somewhere else, at least part of them who don't live here. some stay with us the whole period and others come and go between our house and my sisters in lows houses. Now I do understand that it is just simply common practice to accommodate visiting family but it becomes very tasking, specially with our Arab culture and not very sensible traditions. Anyhow, now only my MIL and SIL are here both disabled on physically and one mentally and the latter stays with us. I seriously can not wait to have the house to myself again, which will be for a while no cos they will not leave till their maid returns from her vacation. Also my younger sister is going to start residing with us starting Thursday, because my parents and older sister are leaving for a long vacation and she is tied with work and can't leave with them. So here you have it.

On another note my darling 5 year old daughter is starting school this year, and I am both excited and nervous. Excited because my off-springs are growing and nervous because of the change of schedule and routine this will entail. After indulging in being the night owl that I am since quitting my job to become a stay at home mum, now I have to summon forces to help me cope with the and early bird's life, but all for the children's sake.

I sometimes wonder how do people really feel about one another. I mean would you if you love someone want them around all the time or are you like me you like your personal space, and I am not only talking about romantic love I mean any kind of it. I don't know sometimes I wish I was more of a people's person but mostly I love my private space and enjoy my boundaries.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

21st century blackouts?

We just had our first summer blackout. Yes yes that is a common problem in the summer along with water shortage.It was midnight, but you know midnight here is like 8 o'clock anywhere else. Everyone is up even children.

Anyhoo, we needed some light to see so what do we turn for? The trusted laptop, open your laptop and voila' light. Then we also used it to keep our girls feeling good with songs, cos they were very tense.

I remember a few years back when I was working. One day I arrived to work to discover that there is no electricity, our offices where on the 6th floor, no elevators! The shock! The horror. To add to it there was only the emergency stairs exit to use up. The stair way was so dark one could not see where they are stepping. So a colleague got out his PDA and directed to the stairs to help the both of us reach our destination.

So moral of the story is, where would we be without electricity? I mean Gadgets...

Sunday, June 15, 2008

A mighty heart

I would like to know: where do jews get to preach world peace and harmony among different cultures when they have killed people and robbed a whole nation out of their land and home.

A mighty heart... indeed but it is that of my grandmother who ran away from home under the jews shotguns with her little children and a nursing baby on her arm. Now that is a mighty heart indeed.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Age

OK I am more OK with growing older than not OK, does that even make any sense. I am or will be in a couple of weeks 37 years old. And I have no intention to lie about my age. I don't get people who lie about their age. I mean one would know the truth so does it really matter if people think you are younger. What if you are a 40 something woman and you say you are a thirty something woman, and someone just goes: Oh you look ten years older!!!! How would you feel then....

I am slightly unaware of how old I am. I recently distributed a questionnaire for my dissertation research and I was surprised at some people's ages. And reading one 40 years old I was thinking: she is actually old, then I was: hello! you are going to be that old in three years!!!

I guess everyone feels younger than they already are. Just like how we all think we are smarter, more beautiful and attractive than we actually are. Well at least that is true for all of you, for me I am just as pretty as I think myself to be.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Dissertation

OK so I made the mistake of enrolling to continue my masters degree this year. I am doing distance studies. At some points I feel like I have no idea what I am doing. It is a loooot of work, specially going around distributing your questionnaires and such oooh sucks.

I have to finish everything by October and though it feels like I can do it, I am kind of in doubt. I am also questioning the topic right now. I have anticipated a bit of a richer issues to cover. But so far nothing. I am considering changing the topic, not sure if it is possible at this point.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Snooze

I wish!!! I am back at the studying world again. Enrolled this year to finish my masters I have the big bit left the DISSERTATION. I am sooo worried. I feel like I have no clue, and I have got a billion things to read and then the research.

I am done with contacts to the colleges and unis where I have to do my search, next week I have to do the actual visits, yek. Wake up early and talk to people really not my thing. Tried all my life, school, uni, and work. But it must be done. I need to find courage and go for it.

So I also have to stop procrastination. Think of doing something just do it, that is what I am trying to do now, instead of going over everything in my head a million times before doing it, just do it, it helps with procrastination.

OK off I go to start my day, there is food to prep, girls to dress, and then studying to do...

Friday, April 18, 2008

Hey

I want to try and make a good effort to blog more often. Why? Cos I think I have some genius ideas that I want to share. OK so who gives a .... Maybe no one, but at least I shared, and sharing is good as I tell my girls.

So the piece of wisdom for the day is,,, crap I forgot. Where do all the good ideas go when you need one.

Sleep tight

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Joie de vivre

If you really take a good look at our world, you will want to be out of it. Wars, crimes, hunger an endless list of human suffering. And if you think that human kind is so much in control then think again. Anyone can come up of a list of misfortunes that could happen to a person. But those are not my main concern here. I want to talk about the human cruelty.

It is not enough that nature could be man's worst enemy, humans can not stop killing each other. When I think of where the world is heading I fear for my children. The world is run by a bunch of politicians serving a bunch of god knows who to get to more power, money and ... and it does not matter who suffers in the process, and how many human lives are killed and tortured. Humans are creative when it comes to crulty to one another. All those people in power go bout their days while being witness and in a position to do change to those who suffer in the world and yet they do nothing. I can not imagine how can someone do that. What is it that drives a human to lose perspective to that extent. If you are a father, brother, son or friend. If you are a mother, sister, daughter or friend, would you want any harm to your loved ones. And no matter what your religious belief is you are going to die one day. Knowing and being all that how can you want anything so bad that you kill and torture people for. Those kind of humans will always be beyond my comprehension.

Living in the world we live in, I sturggle everyday to keep the joy in my life. I do my best not to see the news for one. I remind my self of the beautiful nature, a nice breeze, a beautiful sunset, the smiles of my children. Every night I fight my tears and pray to God to keep my family safe and sound.