Older

I have been thinking so much about growing older. I am steadily heading to my forties now that I am turning 38 this coming June. Many thoughts and questions come to mind. Will I ever be able to regain my previous physical form? Can I lose the extra weight? Will I still look nice, or am I going to look like a grouchy old lady? Will I be enjoying good health or am I going to start suffering from various old age illnesses?

I am turning 40 in a couple of years, and I can't believe it!!!

What about the social norms and expectations of people around me? There is a a stereotype to age just like everything else, should I try to adhere to that? or should I just do as I feel like?

I know that in my heart I am not trying to look younger or behave younger, but I am taking the same approach to things as I did 10 years ago. I mean a simple matter like choosing an outfit; should I avoid wearing certain things because the are suppose to be for younger people? Or avoid using a perfume that I liked because it is targeted at a younger audience. I am really not a very trendy person to start with, and that has not changed, but I do like to try new stuff that appeal to me, a new style, a new type of music (could be new to me only) a new perfume and such.

I was choosing a piece of jewelry the other day and my mother was with me. Now she is turning 62 this year, and thought she does not dress in a very young attire, she does try to behave like a 22 year old girl. But still at that when I was shopping I liked a pendant shaped like a butterfly and made from mother of moonstone, to me it looked nice and the question of it being age appropriate did not even cross my mind. But my mum said it was not appropriate for me. Now it was not a colorful little butterfly, as I said it was a very soft color and a bit big pendant. But her comment got me thinking. Should I starting giving more consideration to what I chose wear and try to incorporate "the age factor", or should I just go with what makes me feel good like I always did.

And for some mum ranting: aren't mothers suppose to view their children young for good? And is it a strong indication that your aging when your own mum says something about it?