40

I just turned 40 about two weeks ago. Now I am not depressed or crying over time or anything. But I am very aware of the fact that I have been on the face of earth for 4 decades with three generations of people younger than me. That is quite something. Yet I don't know how I feel. I am online looking for indications like I want someone to tell how to feel. The truth is becoming a mother affecting my personality much more than turning 35 or 40 now. More or less I am the same person I was 20 years ago, maybe more assertive and open than I was then, which I attribute to aging and motherhood at the same time. But other than that I am mostly the same. So I couldn't help wonder, is there something I am missing? Should I feel something I am not? and if yes what is it and why don't I feel it? Maybe by the end of this year I'll find out. Or maybe my 40 is like my 30 not so significant. I felt a difference in me at 25, and then 35 so maybe 45 is the next leap digits for me.

For the first time in 16 years I feel like I want short hair. I have an appointment tomorrow for a hair cut where I plan on getting for the first time in 16 years an above the shoulder hair cut. Hope I don't regret it.

Can't make up my mind

I have been wanting to grow my hair which is already long to new lengths. But for a week now I have been thinking about nothing but cutting my hair to this.

Nail Polish

I decided to post a pic of every nail polish I have, since I am trying out all new colors all the time. This one is from Max Factor.

OH, I think explanation is due. During the last trimester of my pregnancy I usually develop a liking to something new. This last pregnancy I developed a liking to nail polish. I went out a bought a bunch of all different colors. My pregnancy is over now and my baby is 4 months old but my nail polish interest remains... :)

The value of time

It is true that as we get older time becomes more valuable. But parenthood puts an added spin on that. Time as a parent is not only more valuable but also more precious. Every passing moment is one to cherish...