I am back again, with all my pregnancy glory. Yeah last time I posted was February, so yeah, pregnancy comma, brain goes into a reduced state of activity, not to mention receeding energy levels. Am I gonna talk about pregnancy again? Sorry but I am. This time its the emotional changes, concider yourself warned!
OK this is my third, but you know that if you had read above, and this time round I thought I have seen it all. I mean I know by now about the physical changes, the emotional changes and others. I am afraid I was not quite right.
The physical bit this time I have already whined about that, so I will not get into it again, suffice to say that those pains are just more intense this time round. OK you guessed it is about emotional change during pregnancy and some other sensory changes, no I am not trying to be funny, it’s hopeless, so I am tellting you the truth. What I mean by sensory changes is how I feel and react to smells, touch and visiual effects.
In my previous pregnancies I would have a strong aversion to any alcohol based perfumes. So this time like a good girl who listens to her body, I went to the mall at the begining of this pregnancy and bought myself some Oud and Musk, these were the only perfumes I could use before. I was so happy with myself being so wise and respectful of my body. What happened is at the first few months (3 months) I did not even like those, the only thing is they are not very volatile so I was still able to use, I just had to avoid smelling them. And now I can tolerate regular alcohol based perfumes better, so I did not even need to buy those, I could have spent that money on something else, like regular perfumes that I like. But trust me lesson learnt next time there will be no planning I will just take every pregnancy month as it comes.
You think my reaction to touch and visiual stimuli does not change. Well it does. First any little pressure on my body like my little girls hand squeezing me makes me feel like she is pressing right into thte bones. Visual, I have very low tolerance to prolonged exposure to light specially artificial light, and at the same time I become more of a morning person than my usual night owl self, so I have to keep changing my settings.
What else? Crying sessions. Well not really that bad but almost. I am too sensitive to anything. I take what people say or do to me to close to heart and I hurt and cry or get touched and cry. OK it is not only real life that gets to me also fictional, any emotional scene on TV or in a movie can start tears. I mean if you are a mother you are already more emotional, if you are a mother and pregnant, then forget it you are lost.
Hem, memory my dears, memory. Once I had it now I don't. I think my brain finds it too difficult to deal with all the pains of pregnancy that it loses a good part of its abilities mainly; memory and focus.
Now my fellow women do not be upset with me because I am admitting to these things. First I give you that not all of us are the same, and second, it is by acknowledging our shortcomings that we are able to overcome them.
